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Tue - 07/02/02 fear and trembling
Fear is a quality that binds all of mankind together. We fear what we do not understand. We fear what might be. Sometimes we fear for no discernible reason. This instinct, that's been carried over from our ancient past, has allowed us to stay alert and beware of the many dangers around us. The ancestral fear of predators lurking in the darkness has shaped the mythology of every human culture. The combination of fear and our imagination has given us demons and monsters of every kind and in doing so allowed us to create our heroes and gods to rescue us from the darkness. In today's society, however, fear has become a shackle that holds many of us back. Those who are able to break free are often rewarded with the best luxuries man can offer. Yet, this anachronism holds us in it's grasp. Under stressful circumstances it causes our palms to sweat, our pulse to quicken and our stomache to twist into knots. Ironically this instinct which has protected us for so long, today, often drags us to our doom. They say fear is the ultimate motivator and in fact it motivates our daily decisions on a level we're not even aware of must of the time. It can control us to a point where any hope for a normal life is lost and every step seems like an endless climb. But, just like any of our senses or emotions it can be controlled and, to a certain extent, ignored. Fear is irrational and chaotic; a throw-back to an ancient part of ourselves we'd like to forget about, and yet, one must wonder if we would really be better off without it. Whether we'd lose that part of ourselves that stands in awe of the world around us, that must find a way to understand and master it.
Sun - 06/30/02 truth is beauty
Truth is a concept created by mankind, fathered by the assumption that things either exist or do not. Our perception of truth is what we use to define existence. Religion, philosophy and science are merely extensions of this premise; a search for an absolute truth. By which we can define all of existence. It is this search for truth that drives us to look beyond our perceptions. What we believe to be truth, however, is defined by our perceptions. Not only physical perceptions such as our senses but spiritual perceptions such as the belief in an absolute truth. The human longing to glimpse infinity and to touch the cheek of God. What we can see, hear and touch we believe and yet at the same time we believe in things that are beyond the scope of our senses. So what does truth have to do with belief? Subjective truths are beliefs. What each of us perceives to be true, we believe. The human search for an absolute truth is an attempt to turn our subjective truths into an all encompassing objective truth which would explain existence/reality. This may never occur as we define reality by our own subjective truths and to attempt to carry those truths over to a universal objective truth will only cause them to be muddled by our perceptions creating merely the illusion of an objective or absolute truth. It almost sounds like I know what I'm talking about..
Fri - 06/24/02 subjective solutions
I finally got around to putting in a subject to my updates.. hooray. I was looking for a simple way to have to oppositely justified entries on the same line. After listening to suggestions of frames and dhtml from a questionable resource I fiddled around and did it with tables. Hooray for html and writing it in notepad. Yes, well this is a rather bland update. Perhaps I could do a striptease to spice things up a bit.. perhaps not.
Fri - 06/21/02 dabbling in dogma
An 8-year-old's Explanation of God
One of God's main jobs is making people. He makes them to replace the ones that die, so there will be enough people to take care of things on earth. He doesn't make grown-ups, just babies. I think because they are smaller and easier to make. That way He doesn't have to take up His valuable time teaching them to talk and walk. He can just leave that to mothers and fathers. God's second most important job is listening to prayers. An awful lot of this goes on, since some people, like preachers and things, pray at times beside bedtime. God doesn't have time to listen to the radio or TV because of this. Because He hears everything, there must be a terrible lot of noise in His ears, unless He has thought of a way to turn it off. God sees everything and hears everything and is everywhere, which keeps Him pretty busy. So you shouldn't go wasting His time by going over your Mom and Dad's head asking for something they said you couldn't have. Atheists are people who don't believe in God. I don't think there are any in Chula Vista. At least there aren't any who come to our church. Jesus is God's Son. He used to do all the hard work like walking on water and performing miracles and trying to teach the people who didn't want to learn about God. They finally got tired of Him preaching to them and they crucified Him. But He was good and kind, like His Father, and He told His Father that they didn't know what they were doing and to forgive them and God said OK. His Dad (God) appreciated everything that He had done and all His hard work on earth so He told Him He didn't have to go out on the road anymore. He could stay in heaven. So He did. And now He helps His Dad out by listening to prayers and seeing which things are important for God to take care of and which ones He can take care of Himself without having to bother God. Like a secretary, only more important. You can pray anytime you want and they are sure to help you because they got it worked out so one of them is on duty all the time. You should always go to church on Sunday because it makes God happy, and if there's anybody you want to make happy, it's God. Don't skip church to do something you think will be more fun like going to the beach. This is wrong. And besides the sun doesn't come out at the beach until noon anyway.

Hooray for a child's ability to mindlessly regurgitate dogma!

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